For brain tumour awareness month Liorah has shared her experience of caring for and losing her dad to a GBM.
Grief, a word associated with the loss of your nearest and dearest.
A deep internal and physical struggle, a word I never thought I would associate with, especially at the age of 24, a word I still can’t get to grips with now. Grief? What does it truly mean. Is it how I thought it would feel, to grieve, to feel sorrow, to be sad? No it’s not at all, it’s a mixture of numbness and disassociation. I can’t associate with the word, when I get told I’m grieving. Am I? What’s happened? I take myself away from the situation, almost as if it never happened. My body is smartly protecting me from intense pain, the sense of lostness and belonging. Does this work in the long run?
Losing my dad was my worst fear, he is and was my best friend, my soulmate, the only person who would understand. He showed me all the love I could possibly want. He gave me reason and love. Michael showed me what love was, he taught me all I know. I get asked daily, “how do you do it?” “how do you cope?” I cope because I’m strong, although I have many moments, I was raised by the most amazing human being in the world. My father showed me all my strengths and for that reason I am who I am today. For that I am eternally grateful.
Despite everything my dad was going through he did it all with a smile on his face, positive thoughts will always override the negative.
Don’t ever be afraid to reach out to me or anyone, letting your emotions out and sharing is the best thing we can all do.
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